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Just Thinking......

As I was cooking dinner tonight (rare these days), it weighed heavy on my mind what my friend Jenna said to me..........UPDATE YOUR BLOG!!! It wasn't just those words but what it meant behind them.......sitting down and taking time to do what I want to do and making time for myself. I so need that but with Kyle and home and work ........okay mostly work these days I don't get to. I actually left work today at a reasonable time 5:30pm and am taking tomorrow off to spend with Kyle who will be participating in the Special Olympics at the SC School for the Deaf and Blind. Gator won't be able to be there because he took the morning off to do a radio interview for the upcoming Poker Run he is doing. I haven't even been able to be much help with that and I feel so bad but what can I do when I am spending days, nights and weekends trying to keep up with all the paperwork that comes with protecting the children of our state. Yet I feel like I am not doing enough at home. I am trying so hard to do everything for Kyle yet keep falling short. I so wish we could give him a brother or sister to know that he would have someone to watch over him if something should happen to us. He is doing so much better and saying a lot more but what if it is all not enough. I don't want him to be in a state home somewhere. We did our wills with the help of my cousin before Kyle was born but still I can't help but worry. Guess that's why my Grandmother still cries or gets upset when we go somewhere or I tell her I have been out and had to remove children from their families with law enforcement. My mom worries too but she doesn't show it like Grandmother. Life is so precious but so short. My goal is to focus a little bit more at a time on allowing myself the time to do something that I want and in the process allow you, our family and friends who don't get to see Kyle often, to catch up on what you've missed out on...........our chunky monkey.